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No good reason, just irritable and need a place to vent. This has not been a spectacular week.

There's a lot of brouhaha on campus, and late wednesday we were advised that if we could swing working from home for the rest of the week we should do that. I was amenable but I have two budget meetings today. They're not our usual all-hands-on-deck meetings, it's for smaller units who meet with just a vice provost. This year I'm sitting in as a favor to the VP. Anyway, I was hoping he'd move them to zoom, no dice, so I dragged myself in this morning. Not only is the building on lackdown so I'm struggling to get my effing ID out, then I get quizzed when I come in the door. How long will I be here? Will I be staying on my floor? When I leave, can I please use a different entrance? JFC, people, I would in fact PREFER TO BE HOME and if it was this important to you that you suppress all traffic in and out and through the building then perhaps you should have been a little more directive with the Vice Provost about moving those meetings! I assume our attendees will get to go through the same "welcome" to boot.

And I would truly rather be home because I have standing water in my laundry room from a mysterious floor drain, and it's making my washing machine also not drain, so I'm trying to keep separate the clothes that are wet (but cannot yet be rewashed) because they're wet from laundry water vs those which are wet from mystery floor water which I think it grey water but could possible be sewage(!!!) and again: none of this stuff can be rewashed right now. So I have a lot of wet clothes on my deck and yes, it's raining and making them wetter, thank you universe. No idea when maintenance is going to reply

And then I'm still steaming that my father-in-law sent me a huge long email about the current student activism situations at my employer (information courtesy of a reliably biased news network) while giving my name/email to the daughter of one of his church friends who is all upset about the very biased take she's gotten. This person, by the way, lives in Houston, and ever went to UM, so I don't know what her effing deal is. If she contacts me... well I hope she does not.

I don't have time to type out the 74 other things on my list.
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Somewhere along the way I took stock of what kind of service I've been doing and felt sheepish about how thin it is. My job sucks a lot out of me, which is part of it, but I also just got complacent.

This spring I saw a call for grant reviewers to give money to local social service agencies. I thought that was a good mesh of my skills and interests, plus it was a combination of doing the work at home on my own time and meeting via zoom with other poeple. So I applied and was accepted and did that. It had its ups and downs, the downs are something I might go into later, but I was glad I did it. I even reached out to one of the other reviewers whose insights impressed me, and we are becoming Walking Buddies, which I love. I don't think I would have met her any other way.

Recently I saw a call for Arts grant reviewers, and I jumped on that immediately. I felt especially sheepish filling out that application because even though I feel like my upbringing was steeped in the arts, and I consider myself an enthusiastic consumer of arts, there wasn't one damn thing I could point to in way of meaningful qualifications. "My husband makes stuff" or "I go to lots of museums" or "I buy tickets to beer tasting fundraisers at the Art Center" is a little lame. HOWEVER, I managed to be convincing enough (or, let's face, they were desperate enough) that I got invited to do it. Haven't started yet, just went through training, but I'm really pleased about it. And next time I want to do something like this, I will have some legitimate experience in our local arts community to point to.
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I started my fostering experience with a litter of three kittens plus their mom. Mom and the boy kitten got adopted (by two different families) and I kept the two girls.

Today at lunch I got a call from the Humane Society. They said a cat had been surrendered to them by the owner, and when they scanned for the microchip my info was still in as the owner. It's Nero. 11 months after his adoption, he's ownerless again.

The rescue I worked with has a policy that we will take back any cat, and so Thomas (the guy who adopted Nero) should have called us instead of surrendering him to the Humane Society. Whatever. Either way I feel anguished about it.

I can't take him back into my household. I think he's staying at the Humane Society and hopefully will be adopted out from there. Not the outcome I wanted for him AT ALL and it's hard to put into words how low this made me feel today.
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I occasionally think about my first summer of grad school.
I didn't have much fellowship work so I took a PT summer job working at an apt. complex owned by a large firm in town. It owned my apt (and the rent break this job came with was what attracted me), but I worked at a different location, a small property with a two-person office staff. I wasn't an MVP employee by any stretch, but I was okay with the computer system, reliable, did not generate workdrama that the manager or corporate ever had to deal with, and managed to get along with the difficult maintenance guys.

I had one weekend, ONE, where I wanted to attend an out of town reunion of great importance to me personally. Well in advance, I asked for that weekend off. The manager said no. It would mean she had to work that weekend, or track down a staffer at another complex to fill in, and she apparently didn't want to do either.

So... I gave my notice. I was able to do this because I didn't *need* the job, and in my list of life priorities, being able to attend the reunion ranked above that hourly job. Especially given the lack of any effort the manager had made to find a way to make my request work.

Well, THEN, and only then, did they bother to try to accommodate me. The central office folks intervened to ask me why and would I reconsider, and when they heard what had led me to quit they offered solutions like having another staffer from a different property work that weekend (which was very workable; all policies, procedures, hours, and computer systems were identical in every complex, and they had DOZENS of people across town qualified to do it).

I have thought about this story a lot. For a long time I pondered how lucky I was that I had the freedom to quit (or to push back, if I chose that route) and how many people have jobs like this where they can't quit and can't risk making any waves. My issue was relatively trivial, but this happens for non trivial things too. As important as their work is, workers are so undervalued as individual human beings that managers can get away with any kind of callous policy (or non policy).

More often now I think about how the differing ways to spin that episode. One is that I was a selfish/lazy young person that didn't value hard work, and quit in a petty disagreement over my unreasonable expectations (which is probably how my manager put it then, and I see many employers saying now). Another is that a workplace that has no system in place for coverage and can't accommodate reasonable requests from its employees does not deserve their labor or loyalty. As much as it sucks to have so many understaffed businesses out there, I am hoping this can somehow move the needle on how workers are valued. As a patron I am inconvenienced by reduced hours, unpredictable closures, longer wait times, etc, but I try to tamp down my irritation because I am hopeful this is part of a larger social change. I hope this isn't unrealistic.
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Boy you sure find some unexpected stuff in genealogy.

My BIL doesn't know much about his family, so I've been filling in the blanks. His grandmother was married four times and I'm not sure how close his Dad was to the half-siblings that came from those marriages, so I don't know if he knew this cousin, but: one of his cousins moved to CA to pursue an acting career. He was napping when an acquaintance doused his bed in gasoline and burned him "because he was gay and wanted to put him out of his misery." He didn't die right away, he ran onto his porch which is where he was found.

His family back in South Dakota didn't know he was gay until the story came out.
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My team was discussing the potential addition of some acreage to one of the campus' wilderness areas, but had not yet spoken to the unit who would maintain it. My boss was trying to anticipate their funding request with some doubts about whether they really needed much.

I was like... hmm, maybe there are invasive plant species they need to get out? It was just a wild-assed guess.

Today we heard from the unit. One of their concerns: INVASIVE SPECIES! Woo hoo! I guessed it!

I was very excited in a way I thought I'd never be about invasive species.
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It remains hard to wrap my head around my son being 18. It seemed like that day would never come, when he was small, it just seemed so far off. And here he is, settled into it so well three months into "adulthood." He's not very adult yet, which is fine.

We started a Marley Spoon subscription. Two meals a week. We're two weeks in and I'm really pleased so far. Kirk is gung-ho to help, and I think he's building skills and confidence. I think it's helpful that we're approaching each recipe as novices together. We're referring to the same recipe, instead of me being some kind of kitchen oracle. We're eating more salad (I almost never make salad at home) which is good. Mark is appalled at the idea that we would have dinner ingredients FLOWN to us--the environmental impact horrifies him. Kirk pointed out we're keeping the recipe cards and maybe down the road we'll just acquire ingredients locally.

Kirk's Ireland trip looms. Mama is trying to focus on the many reasons we decided to do this for him so I do not freak out about him being across an ocean for three months.

Speaking of Ireland, Mark and I scrapped our tentative plans to see him while he's over there. In lieu of that we are, all three of us, taking a big trip later this month. Well, as big as we can manage given the number of things that require us to be in Ann Arbor. We are flying to Seattle, taking the Coast Starlight (Amtrak) down to LA, and then flying back home. Some parts of it may feel harried but 36 hours on the train ought to be very restful!
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Okay, it's been 7 months since I switched my account, and here's my first entry. HOW TIMELY.

It has been a rough year, this has to be said. It feels weird to say that I love my job when my job was largely responsible for driving me half out of my mind, but the two are simultaneously true. It was also a slog to get my kid through that last year of high school, lots of angst with rewards and bright spots fleeting & far between. But I think it's smoother sailing ahead on at least the child-rearing front. The job, I don't know. It is probably going to be another challenging year, we all suspect it. I have to do a little more self-care this time.
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My son has always been social, but in the last year or so he's been doing most of his "social" stuff online. With school friends or his Canadian buddy who all like the play the same games. It's social all right, they skype and all. But it just feels very different from what I am used to.

Well, now I have spent the last two weekends waiting up for him to get home after 2 am because he's at Denny's with friends after something social. And last night he said "Busy weekend, Mom. I'm giving blood Saturday, then trying a noodle place with friends. Sunday I'm going skiing." This is in addition to the Super Bowl party I already knew was on his plate.

Also: He's talking about "backpacking through Europe" with a friend.

Well, I'm pleased as punch.
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Well, here I am, having fled livejournal.
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I whispered, "Maybe I AM going to survive this busy period at work. I think I can see a way through. An end in sight."

The cruel Universe has exceptional hearing, friends. One phone call later and I'm back to "Holy shit" territory
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Well, it looks the kid who hit our car (repeatedly) was not insured, so I think I can kiss my deductible goodbye. Little pissant!

LJ email

Jun. 20th, 2016 08:41 am
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"Your email address has been marked as unvalidated because we have been receiving errors messages from your mail server for at least one week. This indicates the address may no longer be functional. You can re-validate this email address or switch to a new email address to begin receiving notifications again."

My email address is valid. Twice now I've asked it to send me a revalidation and it never arrived (I checked SPAM folders too). So I dunno what's up, LJ.
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A student died at my son's school on Wednesday, from a fall. It was a shocking thing, still more questions than answers, but it's been gratifying to see the school pull together. He was a middle schooler (they share a building). Today was supposed to be a fun day of "olympics" and a BBQ, and the staff decided to go ahead with that, which I am glad for.

Last weekend I headed home to help my sister as she moved into our parents' (former) house. We inherited it when Dad died, and I sold her my half, and my nephew has been living there in the interim. But now she's moved in. She had a long wishlist of things she wanted to change/fix before move-in, and I was surprised to arrive and find that so few of them had been tackled. But she's in, and I'm glad I helped, and the other day she posted a nice lake view and it made me feel good that she and her husband are there.

I cannot believe that in a few weeks I am putting my son on a plane to go to Greece on a school trip. We've been apart that long before, but we were travelling, not home. The house will feel very empty.
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If I had the time, I would describe the pretty awesome college tour we had at University of Wisconsin-Milwaukee here!
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I found the campus to be more attractive and imposing that I expected.

I didn't think the guy we met for the info session was that great, and I didn't think the tour was so great either.  My husband and son thought they were both just fine.  I can't tell if I'm just being a hardass because this was my job lo these many years ago, or maybe I'm just cranky, or maybe they have no perspective since this is our first one.

I'll be eager to see how our next one goes, wherever that will be.
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Today is our FIRST OFFICIAL COLLEGE VISIT OMG.  [The kid went to an info session at U-M last summer, but missed the tour.  And he did that alone.  This is the first family trip to do this].

 We're just zipping down to U of Toledo, not that I think will end up high on his college list, but he talked to them at a recent college fair and mentioned them as a place worth checking out.  I glommed onto it and made it the only entry on our "to do" list for his spring break.
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I dreamt I was working for Christian Bale, an esteemed surgeon, and was boarding in a little room off the main office.  He (of course) turned out to be a serial killer.  I walked in to find my room cleaned out and he and his partner in the operating theatre, dismembering a body for eventual disposal.  They did not see me.  I couldn't figure out if that was me they'd killed, and I was lingering around as a ghost, or if they'd accidentally killed someone else.  I stood there paralyzed.  Do I to flee as quickly as possible, or stay there touching everything first so I left my fingerprints all over (so there'd be evidence if they did catch me and finish the job).

These are not restful dreams to have.

Blind man!

Mar. 8th, 2016 10:37 am
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They are renovating offices all around me as we reconfigure for more space.  Today someone showed up to take down a bunch of blinds, but had only a short time to work and said he's coming back tomorrow.  No sooner had he left than a second guy showed up and announced he was there to take down blinds.  So it sounds like they may have accidentally scheduled people from two different divisions to do the work, and there's all kinds of hubbub as they figure out whether this guy should be sent packing, or whether he should take down the blinds the other guy didn't get to.

But mostly I'm just sitting here DYING because I want to run out there and tell that convent story where the nuns are renovating and some guy announces himself as "BLIND MAN...."  I can hardly stand that I can't go out and tell this stupid joke.

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